I think that the realism that it will take time to get pregnant has soured my attitude. I am very impatient. I have been joking that I will have twins the first time I get pregnant so i won't have to wait another 9 months for a second child. lol...well I think that is funny. :)
Also, I am being audited by the social security administration to see if I am still ill and eligible for benefits. Geesh....it is not like being bipolar just goes away. If that were to happen then I wouldn't need help from the stupid government to help pay my medical bills. I know you all can feel me on that topic!
But they want to know so much about me and it is kinda bringing me down because with every answer I give them about my issues and how they dictate my life I wonder....should someone like me really be looking into bringing another life into this world. Well, I bet I will rock as a mom.
