Updates and Negative Comments

This week has been somewhat uneventful. So I won't bore you with the ins and outs of the days. Instead I will focus on the internal issues I have been carrying with me.

For starters I have taken 5 pregnancy test and all have been negative. I thought I would be able to get pregnant ASAP....but I guess that is just a pipe dream. Oh well, we have plenty of time.

I am getting tired of the 7am-1:30pm shift I work. It just feels mundane at times. The only thing keeping me there is that I work with my niece, have awesome coworkers, and a stellar boss. But, everyone has to contribute in some way to society and I must admit I love the kiddies at the school. There are so many brilliant little personalities and quirks. Plus it is good for my mental health to get out of the house.

Patrick and I have been enjoying a more intimate relationship. Not only in the bedroom but just in our freedom to talk about our desires from each other. It is a great opening in our communication. I feel so much more appreciative of him.

I am feeling more distant from my mom. We hardly ever talk these days and I am okay with that to an extent. I like to keep a wall between us because I feel I can only trust her so much. Don't get me wrong, we love each other but there is a facade she puts on...even with me and I do not like it.

I have not babysat my nieces in over a month. I enjoy the free time but I do not like how there is a distant growing between me and my oldest niece. I think Patrick and I should plan a movie date with the girls for next Friday after I get off work. That would do my heart well.

I am making small improvements to our home. As far as picking up more after myself and at least trying to tidy a bit here and there. It is by no means a huge change but it is a positive change no matter what.

Oh, and I received a negative comment to one of my more personal post about my grandma's death. Click the link to read the comment. I am not sure why that one particular post has 2 separate pages. One has a bunch of supportive comments and then this other one has a lovely comment from Borderline Lil and then there is the not so lovely comment. I hope you all check it out just to give me some insight on the situation.