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It is an honor to have you. The contents for this blog are from my personal experiences. Sometimes I will write about being bipolar and sometimes I won't.

I have been Bipolar I for 10+years and medicated for over 9. This blog looks into my treatment history, current therapies, my interest, recipes, love, music, and everything in between. I am hoping that those dealing with mental illness will find comfort, friendship, awareness, entertainment, and maybe even a few good answers. Most importantly, I hope those of you out there struggling will realize you are not alone.


Thursday, December 13, 2012

So much to say, so stay a while with me

my fireplace
and 
Diego Rivera Picture

1: I have graduated for the moment from therapy. My psychologist and I figured that the majority of my social panic in stores relates to a long time ago when I was a young woman and I .....I was arrested in a Walmart for public intox. I won't go into the whole story but it is within the whole story that I found the core to much of my anxiety. There is a sense of empowerment now that I have a better understanding of things.

2: I just read something interesting about Mary Todd Lincoln, Abraham Lincoln's wife. She has been studied and written about and many doctors think she was Bipolar. After all she suffered from emotional instability, massive spending sprees, and awful depressions. She also was institutionalized by her son because she suffered from delusions, attempted suicide, and had paranoia. But with all that said she accomplished being a First Lady and married one of my most beloved presidents. Any thoughts? 

 3:  The party at my home was small but wonderful. I only had a mini panic attack before everyone arrived. I have benefited tremendously from getting my home clean with the help of my man and my mom. Teamwork baby!

 * Things are going so well right now but there is still an underlying panic in me because I am having to see appointed doctors from Social Security Benefits to re evaluate my case and to see if I am still able to receive assistance. Puts my stomach in knots to see doctors I didn't personally pick to see. Do you know what I mean?
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10 comments:

  1. Breathe. Hopefully your own doctor's will be of help in this area.

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    1. Deep breathing starts now. Only happy thoughts...ahhh, laying out at the ocean off the west coast....meditation feels good.

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  2. I'm glad that the party went well! Your fireplace looks lovely.

    Just try to relax about seeing the Doctor. Good luck to you!

    Hugs!!!

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    1. Me too Ally! Thank you for the support...I will be fine (freaked out, insecure, neurotic, emotional)lol

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  3. Love Diego Riveria. Your mantle looks nice. It is great your overcoming your panic attacks! I also get nervous with new doctors also. They can pretty much do anything or nothing.

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    1. That is absolutely right! I feel like I am at their mercy. RIvera and other Mexican artist use such vibrant colors....love it! My mom got me the one above the mantle.

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  4. I must admit that I am a fan of Diego Rivera, but more of a fan of Frida's work! And I must also admit that your fireplace makes me jealous!

    I'm glad that the party went well, and that you are doing well. Things will work out just fine, try to relax and not worry.

    Have a good weekend :0)

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    1. I have to admit that I had no idea of who Diego Rivera was until I did an art report on Frida Kahlo. Her artwork is so raw and I love it but there is a sadness in her art which is probably why I don't hang it. Diego seems more optimistic. And as for the fireplace...it may look cool but we never use it. The idea of a fire in my home scares the shit outta me. But I appreciate all you have said because it is so sweet and supportive.

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  5. Hey there, I just stumbled across your blog
    I have anorexia/bulimia and also depression and anxiety
    Just wanted to show some love and support

    Good luck on your journey x

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    1. I am sorry to hear that you struggle with so much...eating disorders are pretty intense and can dictate what you do in a day. I have a great deal of compassion for people who suffer from ED. I used to be bulimic and so I kind of understand how life altering they can be. (sorry enough ED talk).

      I am so happy you found my blog and especially took the time to comment. I can't wait to check out your blog.

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