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Sunday, October 27, 2013

Part of me feels isolated and depressed

Something is not right with me today. I feel very sad and alone and as if no one cares or sees it. I don't care about what tomorrow is going to be like because today is a huge black cloud. But I am not selfish. I am not going to put my depression on those around me. I won't let it ruin my man's day but I am so hurt. I don't get why. I feel so hopeless and like hiding. I'll probably go to my parents tomorrow and just leave my phone on silent. This too shall pass....or whatever.

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  1. You're right ... it will pass, but you should really express your feelings and thoughts, even if you don't want to put the burdens on others. Those who love and care for you will be understanding to this.j

    Thinking of you and hoping that it passes by tomorrow.

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  2. Today is better right now and I hope it stays that way. I showered at least. lol

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  3. Hi, Afton.

    A few years ago you used to leave really nice and helpful comments on my blog, Chronic Impending Disaster. I dumped that shit a while ago, but now I decided to start blogging again. My new blog is librariansofbabel.wordpres.com, and I decided to go by QuixoticMatt. It would be cool if you'd try reading me again, and I hope it's allright if I come back to reading your blog.

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    1. But of course I will follow you CID! So good to know you are back

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  4. Hi Pink,

    I know the feeling of being so alone and I hope that by now you are feeling a little better. Lonelinees hurts so much and I don't want you or anyone else to feel like that.
    You have been such a help and sweet support to me, thank you so much.

    xoxo, tracy

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    1. Hey Tracy....how are you? I am feeling much better and i was actually getting manic a few days after I came out of my depression and then I overspent and started to recieve packages from amazon till the bank account was empty. Now I am in recovery and I didn't realize i had been gone so long.

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  5. Hi Afton, I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I hope you're doing better now that a few days have passed since you wrote this. I missed your blog when I wasn't finding any time to read anything, and I'm glad that you're still here, writing, creating awareness and change, and keeping us all informed about your recovery journey. You are an excellent writer.

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    1. Oh Jen I am doing much better. I had a bout of shopping that i suspect you can relate to. The depression ended and I went straight to mania and spent every a lot on amazon and Macy's. Not good.

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